I used the last of my IC (internet cheapie) pregnancy tests today. I have been testing every day this week. As you know from this post, I'm paranoid about this pregnancy. If you've ever had a loss you'll understand.
Here's the last of the tests. I also added a test to the top of the page - it's the one that I took about 36 hours after my HCG trigger shot. I don't think they're getting much darker, but the line is showing up a lot faster.
One of my friends in real life who knows of this site, called me to congratulate me on my pregnancy the other day (hi CLD!), I think she was surprised by my lack of excitement. Don't get me wrong, I am excited, but I have to protect myself in case something goes wrong. I wish that I was one of those women who had the perfect pregnancy and who could be giddy with excitement, but I'm not. I can't make plans for this baby beyond the next week or two.
We are in limbo right now. I experienced a really boring time at the mall yesterday. There's nothing that I can buy right now (except for shoes). I can't buy real clothes, I won't buy maternity clothes, and I certainly am not going to risk everything by buying baby clothes.
Sometimes I think that I'm the only pregnant woman out there who not only imagines what to do as the pregnancy progresses, but who also makes plans in case it doesn't.