Thursday, March 31, 2011

Embryo Transfer Remembered

Last year on this day, 3 sub-par embryos were transferred into my uterus.  Although 24 eggs had been retrieved only 3 days prior, the chances of a pregnancy were very slim.

19 of the eggs were mature.  ICSI was recommended and even then only 13 eggs fertilized.  Each day when the embryologist called her report was worse than the day before.  On top of that I was at great risk of having the embryo transfer cancelled altogether due to OHSS.  If that were the case then we would most likely not have any embryos to freeze.

Given the state of our embryos, the RE's agreed to allow the transfer.  Given the state of my embryos, they agreed to transfer 3.

After it was all said and done we went out to eat.  This is what we got at the restaurant:

How right they were!

Monday, March 28, 2011

1 Year Ago Today...

My Little Man was conceived!  Neither Hubby or I were there at the time though.  I believe we were out for lunch.  Let me explain:

My IVF egg retrieval was 1 year ago.  On that day 24 eggs were removed from my aching, swollen, and sore ovaries.

As soon as I was allowed to leave the recovery room, we went out for food.  I was not allowed to eat since midnight, and I was starved!  At the restaurant the embryologist called with the first of the bad news: only 19 eggs were mature & Hubby's sample numbers were not stellar.  She pushed us to do ICSI and assisted hatching and we did.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Remembering IVF

Being infertile can really make you feel alone.  Everywhere you go all you see are baby bumps and strollers.  It's a humbling experience.

I remember the day that I went for my HSG.  There were about 8 women there at the same time also waiting for their HSGs.  Finally I was amongst those who understood what I was going through!  Finally a room full of people that I could talk to.  Finally other people IRL (in real life) who know what it is to spend hundreds of dollars on OPKs, HPTs, and vitamins.  Finally others whose sex life is determined by the calendar.  Finally!  And yet, not one word was spoken as we all waited.

Infertility does something to your personality.  You can be the most outgoing, friendly, and chatty people out there until you start to TTC and realize that you are an Infertile.  Then after months, or years, of unsuccessfully TTC you become withdrawn and silent.

I remember one morning as I waited for my appointment with my RE I looked around the waiting room.  It was full of couples of all ages, religions, and colours.  Most would never meet outside of this room.  All were linked by one commonality.  And no one said a word.

When I started my IVF protocol (you can read about it here, here, and here) I had to see the RE every other day.  They took the IVF patients first thing in the morning so I know that all of the women in the waiting room were all going through the exact same thing as me.  Each morning as I waited to be called back for my ultrasound I would try to catch the eye of another woman.  Several times I would see the same women.  Not once did anyone want to make eye contact.

And through it all I never felt completely alone.  For throughout my journey I had tons of support.  Support found on the internet.  Via this blog, Twitter, and Just Mommies.

And now I sit a year later, remembering how lonely the real world can be, and thankful that I live in a time of IVF and the internet.  I know that without either I would not be where I am today.

To my readers who have been there, or who are going there, I hope that you know that you are not alone.  If you can't make eye contact in the waiting room, come online.  We are here to support you no matter what!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

1 Year Anniversary

1 year ago today I injected myself with the first of my IVF drugs.  Those drugs ultimately resulted in my beautiful baby boy.

It's hard to believe that a whole year has passed already.  Last week I went back and reviewed my blog posts during the IVF process.  The first one is here.  The truth is those posts don't accurately reflect how I was feeling at that time.  I was afraid to get too hopeful and I didn't want my posts to always be a downer, so most days I didn't write a post at all.

We were very, very lucky in that our IVF resulted in a pregnancy and a live birth.  Sure we had some bumps along the way (OHSS, no left over embryos) but in the end it was worth it.  And good thing, as this was our only shot!

If IVF is in your future let me say this:

  • The injections are much worse in your mind than in reality.  I self injected for each one.  The bloodwork needle is much, much worse.
  • Do your best to have lots of distractions.  
  • The egg retrieval is fairly simple.  I went out for lunch right after because I was starved.
  • Try to relax for a couple of days after the embryo transfer.  It may not help, but it certainly can't hurt.

Good luck to you all!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Quarterly Report

Yesterday my Little Man turned 3 months old.  Since we often refer to him as the household's CEO I feel it fitting to give a quarterly report.

The truth is that while we have our moments, he is a really good baby.  Maybe that's because I hate to hear him cry so I'm rushing to him to see what he wants!

At his 12 week check up he has nearly doubled his birth weight.  He now officially weigh 10 pounds 10 ounces.  While that's still small by many standards, I think he's getting so big!  He's definitely getting long.  I'm hoping that he will get his height from my father who is 6'1".  The rest of our family is basically only average height, and some of us are just plain short!

Yesterday I left him for the first time with someone other than his dad or grandma.  I had a dentist appointment and I didn't want to bring him.  I asked Hubby's aunt (the only family we have who lives in the province) if she would come to babysit.  She was delighted to.  Nathan started to make strange and I was hesitant to leave (for her sake).  I managed to get him to sleep before I left and she said that he woke up happy for her.  Good thing as I will have to return to the dentist again in a month or so.

Next week we are going on our first plane ride.  It will be just him and me and I'm a little worried about how he'll behave in the airport and on the plane.  Fingers crossed it all goes well.  Thankfully it's a short flight.

Sock monkey buddies:

Showing off his cloth:

Finally loving bath time:

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Wordless Wednesday - Something to Embarrass My Progeny One Day

*At least I covered up his "junk"

My Chart

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